Lily felt relieved when James didn’t push the matter any farther. Apparently it was a suitable answer for him, and that pleased her. One day, though, he’d have to learn about her feelings. Now, just wasn’t the time. And it wasn’t like she lied.
“Alright, let’s go, Potter.” Walking in stride with James, Lily walked close enough to him, but kept some of a distance. When they started on their way to Hogsmeade, she asked, “So, you have this planned right? You’ve been asking me long enough.”
Teasing, she let out a small laugh, her green eyes twinkling. Sometimes she looked at James and her heart just felt like it was going to give out. She was in for it, and bad. Just so he didn’t notice.
It was almost surreal…The way she looked so comfortable and playful around him. James couldn’t believe it was really happening.
He glared at her once again while walking by her side. The sound of Lily’s laugh was so heartwarming and what to say about her eyes? He could look into them forever. How fucking cliche, James, he found himself thinking. But he couldn’t help it. It was ridiculous and pathetic and…totally inevitable. He silently wondered what Sirius would say if he could hear James’ thoughts on Lily, he would probably mock the hell out of him and who could blame him? James would probably make fun of himself if he wasn’t too busy falling in love with Evans.
James hadn’t anything planned for this date and once Lily brought up the subject he probably looked a little shocked for a few seconds, but then his expression changed and he elbowed her with amusement.
“Actually…no. I wasn’t expecting it, ok? Don’t pressure me” he said in his own defense. “Besides, I’m good at improvising. You’ll see.”
Lily ran a hand through her hair nervously when James asked the question that she knew was coming sooner or later. It had to. She just was afraid to answer it. Lying would be absolutely horrid, and telling the truth would be like flushing everything that she knew to be right in the world, down the toilet.
Because I have feelings for you, she wanted to say so badly, but knew that no matter how badly she wanted to say it, her words wouldn’t come out like that. It was impossible. Even moreso when she caught gaze of his smile.
“I thought you deserved a chance.” Lily answered finally, not truly lying because it was true, but not telling him the whole reason as to why she had finally agreed.
He could see Lily was a nervous since she took some time before answering his question. And then James started to feel a bit anxious too. Perhaps it wasn’t such a good idea since she was clearly struggling to give him an answer.
He put his hands in his pockets, staring at her as patiently as he could. But once she answered he couldn’t help but grin. Possibly the widest smile he gave in years.
“You wont regret it.” James assured her, his childish smile quickly turning into his usual smirk. “Let’s go.”
Lily watched as James messed up his hair, biting back a smile when he quickly stopped. He thought she hated it, but she actually found it somewhat attractive. That was why she hated it. She hated anything that made her attracted to him.
“Figured,” she rolled her eyes playfully, letting out a small laugh as she did so. When he asked if he could ask her a question, a brief look of concern crossed her features, but she hid it by nodding, and keeping her expression neutral.
“What is it, Potter?” Lily questioned when he didn’t ask right away.
She couldn’t help but worry of what he was going to ask her. Would she answer truthfully? Of course she would. It was just nerve-wracking, and she wouldn’t know what to do if he asked her something about her feelings, or something of the sort.
“I just…I wanted to know…” he began but suddenly he found himself hesitating. It was not lack of confidence, because that’s just something you can’t expect from James Potter, it was just that he didn’t want to scare her away by making her feel uncomfortable or something like that. “I wanted to know why you changed your mind….About going out with me, I mean.” he said it once and for all, before he could regret it.
The headboy just needed to know. He needed to know what changed so he could keep it up since it was clearly working for him.
So he gave her a slight smile, waiting for her answer, as if it could somehow, encourage her to be honest with him (and with herself).
Lily bit back a smile when James complimented her. It was mostly to keep herself from blushing furiously. If she was going to do this, she had to without any clear indication of her feelings. She didn’t want to embarrass herself. It pleased her to not hear any arrogance in his voice, just sincerity. Maybe he wasn’t as bad as she had made him out to be in all her years at Hogwarts.
“Thank you,” she replied finally, quietly, as she met his gaze straight on. Lily was surprised that he was even standing after she had agreed. It had taken her long enough. At least 4 years of his asking, and her refusing every time.
Practicing her self control, she pulled at a button on her sweater, before asking, “Ready to go then?”
It was safe to say that she was expecting the date to be somewhat good instead of a disappointment. Maybe she’d just have to put her faith into him for once.
James ran a hand through his hair, messing it up even more then regretted right after. He knew Lily hated it,she said it herself in their fifth year, but it was one of the many mannerisms the dark-haired boy had never been able to rid himself, and probably never would.
“I’ve never been more ready.” he winked at her playfully. “But first…May I ask you a question?” added James, surprising himself.
Yes, he has been curious since she accepted his invitation. Yes, he wanted to know why she changed her mind, after all. Although he wasn’t quite sure if that was the right time to ask her something.
But that’s James we’re talking about, if he has something in his mind he says it, that’s just the way it works.
Lily wasn’t sure why she had agreed to go to Hogsmeade with James. Maybe it was because she couldn’t deny her feelings for him anymore. Maybe it was just to please him. Maybe it was so he would stop asking her. She believed it was the first, but that was by a long shot. Her feelings were something…
While waiting for Lily at the entrance to the castle James caught himself doubting she would even show up, which was something completely new for James Potter. Usually he wouldn’t think that a girl would stand him up because it was something that simply never happened. And certainly never would, except if this girl was Lily Evans.
Lily Evans, the girl who always said no finally said yes…How was he supposed to buy it after all this time? But a part of him was confident (his favourite part), because deep down he always knew this day would come.
He heard Lily’s voice calling his name and turned toward the redhead, smiling cheerfully.
“You look beautiful, Evans.” he said, and his voice didn’t sound neither arrogant nor sarcastic as usual. He just sounded…pleased.
I knew this day would come.
Alright. It’s a date then.
Yes, but only if you really mean it. Was that a yes? For real?
Seriously? Wow…I didn’t see it coming!